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My little puppylove, she always manage to make my day nomatter how mad,sad,bitchy I might be.
Love you crazy.
Thinking
I've been thinking pretty much lately, I don't really know what I think about you yet. If you came into my life a year ago I would be head over heels for you, but as of right now I just don't know. I like spending time with you I truly do, but when we're apart I don't think about you that much.
But even if you don't rule every thought I have I still have this unsettled feeling. I think I long for you in my subconscious.
What I simply is trying to say is, I miss you. I get this longing feeling every time we say goodbye, that must mean something right?
But it's not just longing, I have this bad feeling that I shouldn't trust you completely.
I really hope it goes away.
I'm done.
I fucking hate how you always take me for granted. I always have to guard you and take care of all your dirty work. Without me everything around you would die. Yes I said it.
You put yourself on a pedestal, you are so full of yourself. And I can't really understand how in the hell you can't see that?
Let me tell you something, I'm not doing this shit for you, okay! I'm doing it because I KNOW IT HAS TO BE DONE!
But from now on I quit, you have to do it all by yourself.
Ha, you're in for a ride....
You put yourself on a pedestal, you are so full of yourself. And I can't really understand how in the hell you can't see that?
Let me tell you something, I'm not doing this shit for you, okay! I'm doing it because I KNOW IT HAS TO BE DONE!
But from now on I quit, you have to do it all by yourself.
Ha, you're in for a ride....
Savior.
One thing that inspire me every day is music.
It may sound cliché, but in my case it is true.
For the risk of sounding totally pathetic, music is my savior.
And to all musicians out there, remember one thing.
You are someones hero.
You may save a life with the string of your guitar.
My savior is justin vernon, and he doesn't even know it. But I thank you stranger.
It may sound cliché, but in my case it is true.
For the risk of sounding totally pathetic, music is my savior.
And to all musicians out there, remember one thing.
You are someones hero.
You may save a life with the string of your guitar.
My savior is justin vernon, and he doesn't even know it. But I thank you stranger.
touched
I suppose that's the secret, if you're ever wishing for things to go back to the way they were.
You just have to look up.
Before I Fall- page 206
Just a few lines of words can be so powerful, beautiful.
It's from a book I just read. It's absolutely wonderful.
I am deeply touched, feeling emotional and want to kiss the dead leafs on the ground.
I am greatful of life- and terrified.
I don't wanna miss a thing. I don't want to say goodbye to the way the branches lighty swing from naked trees. I don't want to say goodbye to the way the school cafeteria smells like old meat and sweat.
I don't want to say goodbye to the way my sister look in the morning, young and innocent.
Read Before I Fall, it will feel like a filter has been picked from your eyes.
I learned to never take life for granted. Never.
You just have to look up.
Before I Fall- page 206
Just a few lines of words can be so powerful, beautiful.
It's from a book I just read. It's absolutely wonderful.
I am deeply touched, feeling emotional and want to kiss the dead leafs on the ground.
I am greatful of life- and terrified.
I don't wanna miss a thing. I don't want to say goodbye to the way the branches lighty swing from naked trees. I don't want to say goodbye to the way the school cafeteria smells like old meat and sweat.
I don't want to say goodbye to the way my sister look in the morning, young and innocent.
Read Before I Fall, it will feel like a filter has been picked from your eyes.
I learned to never take life for granted. Never.
my drugs
Hey Rosetta!- Yer spring
Telekinesis- Dirty Thing
As Tall As Lions- Song for Luna
Telekinesis- Awkward Kisser
The Kills- Last Day Of Magic
Loved
You are loved.
Never forget that.
Real love is selfless love.
When we become one, how does it feel?
Fragile love is selfish love.
"'And I pray one prayer--I repeat it till my tongue stiffens--Catherine Earnshaw, may you not rest as long as I am living; you said I killed you--haunt me, then! The murdered DO haunt their murderers, I believe. I know that ghosts HAVE wandered on earth. Be with me always--take any form--drive me mad! only DO not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you! Oh, God! it is unutterable! I CANNOT live without my life! I CANNOT live without my soul!'"
- Emily Bronte, Wuthering Heights, Ch. 16
Crush into me
There's no better feeling in this world than the feeling the warmth of someone else body crush into you.
Alive
People say you will feel the most alive when you found true love.
i don't believe that.
I believe the moment in life you will feel the most alive is when you lose something or someone who truly mattered to you.
Losing something is far worse than gaining something.
In that moment you will feel every emotion this world can name, and a few we haven't named yet. You will relive the good times, the bad times.
What will cut your heart the deepest is the knowledge of never getting more good or bad times with this person. In this moment you will for sure know you are alive.
It's a tragic way of seeing life in, but it's sadly true.
Unbearably true.
Speak the untold language
Because I just wanna throw my hands up and be apart of the symphony of the crowd.
belief
We all like to believe our lifes are like a circle. That there is more life than just the one we live now, it is a little like recycling- we live, we die, we become something else.
This is our belief, it's the root of every religion, sect or faith. We want to believe we have a higher purpose than just being blood and flesh. We all want more- a second change, a second time around. Make a difference or just live.
I believe in reincarnation, not religion. I just know deep down there is something more for us. It's not logical- it's just is. And I think that's the point, if you believe in something strong enough it will come true.
I believe in karma, not forgiveness. I don't think we should long for forgiveness and when we get it everything is okay. I believe true forgiveness comes from change- you can't change the past so let it be, change the future because changing for the better is really the only thing that can truly forgive.
All people make mistakes, that is what makes us human.
No matter how many bad decisions you make my belief is that what matters is how clear your heart is when you leave. The only thing that truly matter is who you are behind all those mistakes- that is the person you take with you in the next life.
That's what will decide whom you will be.
Want romance? - read a book.
We all want love, because we know love itself is worth every sacrifice in this world.
Why do we rather have a love that only takes us halfway than nothing at all? Why do we settle for anything less than everything?
When did we become realists and stop being dreamers?
We live in a materialist world, we overconsume everything.
We twist and turn and bend things that actually matter into something it's not. We treat love as common and replaceable, like a cereal brand.
But love is not common- it's beautiful and fragile. I miss the time when art and love mattered. I miss smart strong artists like Emily Brontë, Jane Austen and Shakespeare.
They knew the art of love.
They knew the real feeling of love swelling over you, they knew about heartbreaks.
They knew the most important thing to know about love; That no heartbreak could ever break love.
I most miss the feeling of honest love, we all seem to have lost that along with our hearts in these lives we live now.
I rather have nothing, than something I know is wrong.
I really wish I had something true.
Lightning in the water
Sometimes life can feel like a strom.
You drift out at sea and those high waves keep pulling you under.
Do not panic, there is nothing to fear, you can soothe the waves, make them swell calm on the surface- you can glide as a butterfly above the water.
Because it is only you who created the chaos, only you can solve it. So save yourself a swim for your life and make the sea cool as a purring kitten.
If what doesn't kill us makes us stronger,
fuck, then I must be superman.
